The Tracklist

rebuilding a cd collection, one disc at a time!

I had a CD collection, not so long ago, numbering close to 300. It went into storage while I was away, and got stolen at some point — best part of 20 years of collecting, gone, never to be recovered. That was it — for over a decade I became dependent on streaming. Now, I'm not anti streaming, I think it has its place, I still stream when in the office or mowing the lawn etc.

But over the last few years I've begun to miss that physical connection I once had. Some will argue it's a tactile experience you can only have with vinyl, I respectfully disagree — for someone who became a teenager in 1990, CDs were and are my thing. I want to place a CD in the tray, peruse the liner notes, consider the cover art, then close my eyes and absorb the sound, have an experience again. And it's still tactile!

So a few months ago I began buying CDs again. Then I bought a new CD player and speakers, and that's when a magical thing started to happen — I started to hear elements of the recordings that I hadn't noted before, and that made me listen even more diligently. As a result I began to make notes as I was listening, not reviews, more observations, musings, memories associated with different songs and albums. And that's kind of how the idea for this blog came about.

What this actually is

So there won't be reviews. I'll share thoughts, observations, feelings — sometimes track by track, sometimes an album as a whole, sometimes I'll comment on just a few tracks in an album, or maybe it will just be a single song. I'm not here to score albums out of ten or tell you whether something's “good.” I want to write about how a record sits with me — what it stirs up, what it reminds me of, why I picked it up in the first place, why it's earned a place on the shelf. Sometimes that'll be about the music. Sometimes it'll be about a memory the music happens to be attached to. Expect it to wander.

Occasionally I may post collection updates, but not updates on every purchase. Every so often I'll share a batch of finds, particularly when something in there actually meant something: a record I'd been hunting for years, a charity shop find I didn't expect, a recommendation that turned into an obsession.

The finds worth writing about

Some CDs are just CDs. Others have a story — why I went looking, what led me there, what it was like to finally find it. Those are the ones worth writing about properly, and those are the ones I'll slow down for.

Why physical media, why now

I could give you the practical reasons — audio quality, ownership, the fact that a streaming service can quietly remove an album from existence and there's nothing you can do about it. All true. But honestly, the real reason is simpler: I missed the ritual. Choosing a CD, holding the case, reading who played what while the album runs — that's a different relationship with music than a thumbnail and a play button. I want that relationship back.

This isn't a nostalgia trip for nostalgia's sake, though. It's a genuine rebuild — new finds alongside old favourites, discovering things I missed the first time around as much as reclaiming what I already loved.

What to expect going forward

No schedule, no promises of consistency for its own sake. I'll write when there's something worth saying — about an album, a find, a memory a song dragged back up unannounced. If you're rebuilding your own collection, rediscovering physical media, or just miss the feeling of committing to an album rather than skipping through one, I think you'll feel at home here.

That's what The Tracklist is: not a top ten, not a countdown — just the running order of what's actually been playing, in whatever order it means something.

First entry's coming soon. Let's see where the shelf takes us.


P.S. A few people will ask what I'm listening on, so — for the curious: Denon D-M41DAB driving a pair of Wharfedale Diamond 220s. Not a flex, just context — it's the setup that started all this.

Short-lived as their career was, The Civil Wars produced some of the best Americana storytelling of their era: emotional, but devoid of unnecessary soppy sentimentality. No filler, no skips, just songs that all pull their weight.

I remember while living in the U.S. spending a lot of time exploring Americana. That exploration led me to Jason Isbell, and the Drive-By Truckers, Old Crow Medicine Show, Shovels & Rope, and others. But it was The Civil Wars that struck a particular chord with me (pun intended). The quality song writing partnered with honest reflection wrapped in layers of sparsity that just work.

Barton Hollow is the kind of record that rewards a slow relisten — not because it's demanding, but because it's so sparse that everything you missed the first ten times finally has room to land. By the 11th listen that sparsity has layers and carries an emotional weight that wasn’t immediately obvious

20 Years

The first track on the album, and also the first one I remember hearing. One of the things that has always struck about The Civil Wars is how their voices aren't just complimentary, but weave together through melody and harmony.

If I recall correctly, this song is about a family secret related to one of them — but that's all that's ever been shared, and the mystery is cloaked in the misty Southern vibe. There's definitely a sense that the secret is never resolved, and the listener is left to ponder. But that pondering isn't necessarily a negative — if anything, it adds to the song's weight. It's that sense of mystery that first encouraged me to seek out more of their catalogue.

I've Got This Friend

Simple, but wonderfully executed. This is the track that proves the album's depth beyond the singles — no key change, no vocal fireworks, just a well-observed lyric and a melody and simple story that trusts the listener to feel it rather than being told to.It’s also immediately relatable. I think that’s the power of the Civil Wars, they tell a story through music, melody, and lyric but don’t feel the need to spoonfeed you into an emotional response. The bridge in particular is a beautiful meander of their complimentary vocals.

C'est La Mort

Could easily picture R.E.M. doing a rendition of this song and retroactively sticking it on Automatic for the People. It’s exactly the right register — hushed, mortality-haunted, elegant rather than bombastic, a song written from inside grief rather than looking back at it, letting the melody carry the weight instead of the lyric spelling it out. Sitting with it longer, I can also hear Eddie Vedder singing this — it has hints of “Just Breathe,” that same stripped-back, plainspoken intimacy with mortality, unafraid of the subject rather than skirting around it.

To Whom It May Concern

If Cinderella was set on a Southern plantation, this would be the song that played when Cinderella and the Prince are reunited. Even a “happy” moment on this record doesn't get a big sweeping orchestral triumph — it gets something quiet and aching instead, joy delivered in the same hushed register as the grief elsewhere on the album.

Poison & Wine

A song about two people who find themselves in a failed or failing relationship. Their most famous song, but I found it the least interesting track on the record — a little flat, sonically uninteresting, as close to skippable as this album has. Maybe that's the irony of it: the same sparseness I've praised everywhere else on Barton Hollow works against this one for me. Here it reads as flatness rather than restraint — proof that “less is more” isn't automatically successful just because it's the band's signature move.

My Father's Father

Has that small West Virginia mining town bluegrass vibe — a different corner of “Southern” entirely to the plantation-Gothic tracks elsewhere on the record, harder and dustier, generational hardship baked into the sound rather than genteel decay. The title itself does a lot of the work: an inheritance passed down through generations of men in a hard place. It's someone who wants to leave someplace but is trapped by that inheritance.

Barton Hollow

The record's mission statement, and arguably still their best song. Built on almost nothing — a driving guitar figure, some percussive stomping, two voices — and yet it's the most menacing thing they ever recorded, closer to a murder ballad than a folk song. As an opener it sets a tone the rest of the album never has to fully match again. It's also the song that announces who they are, in a way most bands need two or three albums to manage.

As a murder ballad, it's worth contrasting with something like Colter Wall's “Kate McCannon” — a classic murder ballad in the fullest sense, narrating the whole crime plainly: courtship, betrayal, confession, motive and method all laid bare from the killer's own mouth. “Barton Hollow” works almost in reverse. There's violence and consequence in the air, but the actual who-did-what-to-whom is never spelled out — atmosphere and implication rather than narrative. Wall gives you the whole crime scene; The Civil Wars just give you the guilt hanging over one. Fitting, given the same instinct runs through “20 Years” — withhold rather than confess, and let the listener carry the unresolved weight.

The Violet Hour

A beautiful instrumental piece. Starts off somewhat sombre, but gradually feels more hopeful, yet the cello keeps that hope grounded. And in true Civil Wars style, it ends feeling like the future has not yet been written. Has very TV theme tune vibes — Twin Peaks meets The X-Files.

Girl with the Red Balloon

Pure Leonard Cohen, with a touch of Serge Gainsbourg. The opening image — a pub on the south side of town, where time stands still while there's still wine around — does a whole backstory's worth of work in one line, the way Cohen so often let a room describe a character rather than naming a feeling. The Gainsbourg comparison lands in the mood: warm, a little dangerous, sung with an intimacy that undercuts how sad the actual situation is. It's a good reminder they weren't purely an Americana act — there's a genuine chanson tradition running under the surface too.

Falling

A swirling number. Where “Barton Hollow” is percussive and driving, “Falling” is disorientation set to music — a circular, almost hypnotic guitar figure and vocals that overlap rather than trade cleanly. The lyrics flow through the melody rather than sitting in tidy rhythmic boxes, stretching and compressing to match the emotional shape of the line — the same instinct you hear in Cohen or Joni Mitchell, where the tune sounds discovered rather than imposed. Even singing the “same” line, Williams and White sometimes land a syllable apart, which only adds to the vertigo.

Forget Me Not

Appalachia sweeps into Georgia's peach orchard and on to the porch of a Savannah plantation — a whole regional journey carried entirely in pacing and hush, without a single line of exposition. This is the album's Southern Gothic instinct at its purest: no magnolias, no sweet tea, nothing so on-the-nose. Just the sense of something old sitting on that porch, and a melody quiet enough to let it breathe.

Birds of a Feather

Another triumph of their vocals intertwining. The call-and-response to begin, before blending together. It's arguably the perfect metaphor for their pairing as artists — fitting, in hindsight.

Bonus Tracks

Billie Jean / I Want You Back

Their takes on these two are unique. Both flip their originals almost completely — Michael Jackson's “Billie Jean” is one of the most instantly recognizable grooves in pop music, all paranoid propulsion and dance-floor tension, but The Civil Wars strip that away entirely for a fingerpicked, swing-feel acoustic arrangement that turns a song about denial into something closer to a confession whispered across a table. “I Want You Back” is an even bigger swing — the original is pure euphoric Motown joy, so finding the yearning underneath the celebration is a much harder trick than slowing down a song that was already melancholy to begin with.

Dance Me to the End of Love

One of the rare moments where I enjoy a cover more than the original. Leonard Cohen's version is already iconic and kind of untouchable — dry, world-weary, with a sinister waltz undertow. The Civil Wars seem built for exactly this kind of material: restraint, close harmony, nowhere to hide. They're not trying to out-perform Cohen, they're finding the quieter, sadder song that was arguably always inside it.

You Are My Sunshine

This one immediately reminded me of my mother — she used to sing the chorus to us when we were young, to cheer us up when we were upset, and if it wasn’t this song it was Two Little Boys, which was a hit in its own right for the infamous Rolf Harris. It's a song that's been passed down so informally, parent to child, generation to generation, that most people who know it learned it the same way I did: sung to them, not from a record.

Fitting that The Civil Wars would be the ones to cover it too, given how much of their own catalogue plays with the contrast between a comforting surface and something more aching underneath.

Goodbye Girl

Not a cover, as it turns out — an original, despite the title's borrowed familiarity. Built around a small, precise image: someone forgetting their grandmother's scarf as they walk away in the park. Same songwriting DNA as the rest of the record — one specific, unremarkable object doing all the emotional work instead of a big declarative line about heartbreak.

The Theme Running Underneath It All

If there's a thread tying Barton Hollow together, it's this: love here is beautiful and hard — often a burden, something to be endured, sometimes naive, sometimes complicit, even compliant. The record rarely lets love be just one thing.

“Poison & Wine” is love as compulsion, damage and devotion inseparable. “Girl with the Red Balloon” is love as accommodation — someone permanently cast as the one who lets others in without ever quite being let in herself. Even “Barton Hollow” itself, on the surface a stomping outlaw song, carries that same undercurrent of consequence and reckoning running through nearly every love song on the record.

What keeps it from tipping into melodrama is that nobody in these songs is purely wronged. The narrator is usually implicated in their own undoing — staying too long, loving the wrong way, complicit in the same poison they're naming. That's love as something people participate in even while it costs them, which is a harder and more honest thing to write than straightforward heartbreak.

If the first entry in this blog was about an old friend, this one's about a new discovery — and one that's earned a genuinely rare title in my collection: a no-skip listen. I have very few of those. This is one of them.

Life's a Bitch Mixtape is a refreshing antidote to the mainstream — a world away from the Taylor Swifts and Harry Styles of the charts. I liked it enough on CD (a limited CDr pressing) that I've also got signed translucent red and translucent smoky turquoise vinyl on order.. When something earns a place on the shelf twice, in two different formats, that tells you something.

An album of two halves

The Life’s a Bitch Mixtape isn’t an album in the truest sense of the word, but a collection of the band’s recordings, and it gives an insight into what the band is capable of, from the alternative rock leanings of ‘That Girl’ to the contemplative ‘Landslides’.

But the more time I spend with this record, the more it reveals itself as two distinct records stitched into one. The first half is narrative-driven — songs that tell you something, that move forward. The second half feels different at first pass: less like storytelling and more like the execution of a sonic concept, an atmosphere being built and sustained. And the longer I spend there, the more I think the second half is telling its own story too — just a quieter, more interior one. And at the centre of that tale sits a genuine trilogy.

That soft-to-loud dynamic running through it is deeply familiar — as a child of the 90s, it's practically wired into me. But SpaceAcre don't lean on it as a gimmick; it's doing real work here.

The trilogy

If there's a spine to the second half — the centrepiece of its story — it's three tracks that read almost like a three-act arc:

The cello opening of “I Thought You'd Never Ask” starts it off gothic — dry, close-mic'd, something in the Rasputina lineage but without the reverb Rasputina usually drown things in. There's a touch of Vanessa-Mae's showier technicality in there too, for such a short passage.

“So I'll Run On” is where it turns genuinely dark, and the crossfade between the two tracks is seamless — magical, even. There's a Celtic Gothic eeriness to it — you could drop thunder and lightning sound effects into this track and they wouldn't feel remotely out of place. It's a tormented piece, and it doesn't pretend otherwise.

“Way Over” closes the arc, and it plays like reconciliation — a taking-back of control after the torment of the previous track. Not joyful. Determined. There's a difference, and this song knows it.

Taken together, those three tracks tell the story the second half is quietly building toward: descent, torment, and a hard-won kind of resolve.

Sitting just outside that arc but still part of the same stretch of the record, “Into the Dust” has its own moment worth pausing on — something distinctly 70s about the production the instant Phoebe hits a falsetto. I still can't fully place the reference. Kate Bush meets Carly Simon is the closest I've got, though I'm not certain that's right. Not Bowie, despite what I first thought — something else entirely, something I'm still chasing.

Moments worth slowing down for

Some individual details deserve their own space:

  • “Say” has real emotional depth, and it gets there without me needing to follow the lyrics closely — the feeling arrives before the meaning does.
  • “Overthrown” is misty, atmospheric — something closer to Clannad or Smashing Pumpkins' “Obscured” than anything more straightforwardly indie-rock. Jas Scott's harmonies do a lot of the heavy lifting here.
  • “Berlin” pulled up an unexpected reference: 90s Heather Nova. That same blend of vulnerability and windswept atmosphere.

There's a lot of echo used throughout the record, with a touch of chorus — and once you notice it, you hear it tying together nearly everything above: the mistiness of “Overthrown,” the falsetto moment on “Into the Dust,” the atmosphere on “Berlin.” It might be the record's connective tissue more than any single lyrical theme is.

The Takeaway

Life's a Bitch Mixtape earns its shelf space by refusing to sit still — a first half that tells one kind of story outright, and a second half that tells a quieter one through atmosphere, with a trilogy right at its centre carrying the emotional weight: descent, torment, and a hard-won resolve. It's rare that a record gives you both a narrative and a genuine structural idea to chew on. This one does, and it's why I keep coming back to it rather than skipping past.


Currently listening on: Denon D-M41DAB / Wharfedale Diamond 220, with a recent pass on Sennheiser HD 560S headphones — the neutral tuning surfaced a little extra depth and warmth in places the speakers hadn't quite shown me yet.

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